For my first blog in the Blogging from A to Z challenge, I decided to do a post on avoidance. We avoid things daily, whether it’s for our physical safety or for our emotional safety. The former makes sense, if you believe in survival; the latter is the more interesting one to me. I can be outgoing in certain situations, but there is one thing that I avoid like a plague and that’s relationships. I think I may have a disorder or something because I cannot get myself to open up and express myself, for fear of rejection. It is a terrible habit, one that I would like to rid myself of. I know that I have missed many opportunities; I may have let a soul mate slip out of my reach and that really scares me. I think that I immerse myself in school because of my avoidance issues. With school, I have control over the outcome, for the most apart. If I want an ‘A’ then I put in the work to get it. Yes, I stay in school because the career I want requires certain degrees and certification, but I wonder if I get a slight bit of relief that I don’t have time to put myself out there, you know, in the dating scene. I hear it’s real rough out there and I’m often glad that I don’t have the horror stories that others have. But, I also know I’m missing out; how do I expect to get married and start a family with a man I love, and who loves me back, if I don’t get out there and meet him? I have to make a change and because avoidance is getting me nowhere.
I have to thank fellow blogger, arlee of the blog tossing it out, for starting this Blogging from A to Z challenge. I think it’s going to be fun! If you want information on the challenge, click the logo, featuring Uncle Sam, to your right.